I'm very confused !!

Being gay in a homophobic society. Can it get any worse!!

I assure you that this reality is confusing, and you are after all the master of your destiny, I believe you should definitely think deeper and measure the consequences of each decision, to not regret it later, it is challenging for an only child and an only girl, to have to choose between pleasing her parents and the society or pleasing herself, my only advice is to wait until you are very sure of your decision and totally convinced to take any step further, like I said you are the master of your destiny, and a day will come when you will have the answer that will fit your situation better, meanwhile try to analyze beyond the evident ends that u might be considering, may your path lead you from confusion to exactitude !